Well, it's been a while since I just wrote whats been on my heart. I will admit its been a little difficult to put things straight in my head, life has been all over the place it's hard to put the pieces together. My thoughts have been everywhere, good, bad, moody, frustration, laughter, sorrowful, you name it I've experienced it!
One thing the Lord has been placing on my heart lately is prayer. My prayer life isn't the most consistant, it should be. I know there are things I want to pray about and should speak to the Lord about but many times I either forget, don't have the energy, or simply don't have the words to express it.
A few weeks ago I had the great opportunity to house sit with a dear friend. We both decided that we would pray together before we went to bed each night. WOW!!! It was a wonderful, empowering thing. Being able to sit down with someone and open up about our day, share our hearts and the people in our lives that needed prayer, and then to pray for each other. I wanted to do it every night. I got to thinking "why do I have to have another person to pray with?" The Lord is always waiting for me to speak to him, he desires for me to come to him, to engage in conversation and let him speak back to me. Many times I do say little prayers through out my day but many times there is lots of commotion and noise going on. It is distracting and I can't always "hear" what the Lord is trying to say in response. When I prayed with my friend at the closing of our days, it was peaceful and quiet. We were able to open our hearts, clear our minds, and let the Holy Spirit speak.
I'm still working on this, some days I write in a prayer journal, others days I say simple, short prayers as I drift off to sleep. In times of distress I have been on my floor, face down, crying out to the Lord. I like writing because then I'm able to go back, read and see how the Lord has answered a specific prayer or see how it is working on answering one. Many times it's not in the way I expected an answer to come or turn out, but it's always the best way. The Lord is teaching me, he is always molding me into the woman he created me to be. He is my Maker and the one I want to be in charge of my life. In order for him to be in complete control I need to speak to him more often, I need to give my praise and express my heart to him. He wants me to lean on him for everything, in everything!
