Forgiving

I know it's something we all struggle with. Don't tell me you're perfect because you're not, none of us are!!! In God's eyes He sees us as clean and holy and pure, but I am not perfect. I'm trying to grow and do what God asks me to do but it sure isn't easy. A huge struggle for me has been forgiveness. I just can't seem to forgive. There is this dark cloud always hanging over me, sometimes the sun comes out and I have a great jot and then there are moments when it just completely clouds me in, sucking the joy and contentment from my heart. I know it's because I can't forgive. I'm not sure how to do it, and it's a choice I have to choose daily and even moment by moment.

This song by Matthew West is perfect, the chorus especially. I desperately need the Lord to show me how to love this person, how to forgive this person. I need to be set free from it and I don't really know how to reach that point of freedom. My mind can't comprehend how this could be possible for me, as a human, to forgive. Scripture says that God does the impossible and unimaginable, so Lord I need you do this, what seems impossible to me. Please give me the ability to know how and do the forgiving that needs to be done.

FORGIVENESS
Artist: MATTHEW WEST.
Album: Into the Light

It’s the hardest thing to give away
And the last thing on your mind today
It always go to those who don’t deserve
It’s the opposite of how you feel
When they pain they caused is just too real
Takes everything you have to say the word
Forgiveness, forgiveness

It flies in the face of all your pride
It moves away the mad inside
It’s always angers own worst enemy
Even when the jury and the judge say you gotta right to hold a grudge
It’s the whisper in your ear saying set it free
Forgiveness, forgiveness
Forgiveness, forgiveness

Show me how
To love the unlovable
Show me how
To reach the unreachable
Help me now
To do the impossible
Forgiveness, forgiveness
Help me now
To do the impossible
Forgiveness

It’ll clear the bitterness away
It can even set a prisoner free
There is no end to what its power can do
So let it go and be amazed by what you see through eyes of grace
The prisoner that it really frees is you
Forgiveness, forgiveness
Oh, forgiveness, forgiveness

I want finally set it free
Show me how
To see what Your mercy sees
Help me now
To give what You gave to me
Forgiveness

Blessings in Change

Well here is something completely new in my life. You know when the Lord decides to take action in your life and take you in the opposite direction then you thought... well that's happened to me this week.

At work I had planned or decided a few months ago that I wanted to move around into the different age groups and classrooms to get experience with all ages for my future career. I communicated this desire to my boss and she said she would keep her eye open for the right position for me to go next. On Monday of this week she pulled me into her office and offered me a different position. She asked me to stay where I currently am working, with the infants. She felt that I was doing an awesome job and offered me the position of Lead Teacher. Totally unexpected since I was looking at moving out of this room. Now my boss wants me to stay and she sees me as a strong person and capable of holding this room together and improving it in the future.

I didn't think this was the direction the Lord was taking me. But apparently it is! There are some big changes taking place, it's more responsibility for me and it also challenges me to step up my efforts and professionalism. With two new employee's coming in, I have to set a good example of how to do this job yet also adjust myself from the old comfort level to these two new co-workers.

So here I go! Jumping in head first, trying new things, praying for the Lord's guidance in this new adventure. May he be the one that shines! Lord, you are so wonderful and worthy of praise. You have blessed me with this new opportunity to grow in my work place and to better impact my co-workers and families that I'm involved with on a daily basis. Please be the one that goes before me, help me to put myself aside and allow your hands to work through me. May I be able to run to you in those stressful moments and seek out what you would do. And to rejoice and give you the glory in the good moments. Show me how to handle situations and most importantly to trust you more and more! Show me how to embrace these new changes and find patience to let the little things work themselves out. Thank you again for these changes and doing your will not mine! I pray all this in your name, Amen!