The Same God by NewSong
Back to the wall, scared you'll fall
What you going to do
Day and night,
Don't know why its like the worlds' against you
You're praying for a break through
There was a day
When your faith couldn't be held down
God was near enough to hear every word
But somehow you wish He heard you right now
Don't you know
The same God who was with you then is with you now
The same God who led you in will lead you out
So take all the fear and doubt
Go on and lay them down
The same God, the same God is with you now
Can't you see
Everything happens for a reason
There's a time, there's a place
For every season
He knows what's best for you
So don't be afraid
The same God who was with you then is with you now
The same God who led you in will lead you out
So take all the fear and doubt
Go on and lay them down
The same God, the same God is with you now
Just keep holding on
Oh keep holding on
The same God who was with you then is with you now
The same God who led you in will lead you out
So take all the fear and doubt
Go on and lay them down
The same God, the same God is with you now
12.12.2011
Less Like Scars
Less Like Scars by Sara Groves
It's been a hard year
But I'm climbing out of the rubble
These lessons are hard
Healing changes are subtle
But every day it's
Less like tearing, more like building
Less like captive, more like willing
Less like breakdown, more like surrender
Less like haunting, more like remember
And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars and more like
Character
Less like a prison, more like my room
It's less like a casket, more like a womb
Less like dying, more like transcending
Less like fear, less like an ending
And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars
Just a little while ago
I couldn't feel the power or the hope
I couldn't cope, I couldn't feel a thing
Just a little while back
I was desperate, broken, laid out, hoping
You would come
And I need you
And I want you here
And I feel you
And I know you're here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad, bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars
And more like
Character
It's been a hard year
But I'm climbing out of the rubble
These lessons are hard
Healing changes are subtle
But every day it's
Less like tearing, more like building
Less like captive, more like willing
Less like breakdown, more like surrender
Less like haunting, more like remember
And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars and more like
Character
Less like a prison, more like my room
It's less like a casket, more like a womb
Less like dying, more like transcending
Less like fear, less like an ending
And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars
Just a little while ago
I couldn't feel the power or the hope
I couldn't cope, I couldn't feel a thing
Just a little while back
I was desperate, broken, laid out, hoping
You would come
And I need you
And I want you here
And I feel you
And I know you're here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad, bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars
And more like
Character
12.03.2011
Real Quick...
Okay so this one's short. I heard this on the radio the other day.
A sign in front of a store that had some construction taking place said this...
"Please excuse the mess, we're growing"
It's so true right now for me. Well I'm sure it's true for many of us. Our lives can be messy, but that's because we are growing. Sometimes our growing causes a mess in our lives. But thats okay because in the end it will be all new. We are becoming new creations in Christ, He is shaping us into the people He had originally planned to be.
So please excuse my mess, I'm growing. The Lord is doing construction in my life.
A sign in front of a store that had some construction taking place said this...
"Please excuse the mess, we're growing"
It's so true right now for me. Well I'm sure it's true for many of us. Our lives can be messy, but that's because we are growing. Sometimes our growing causes a mess in our lives. But thats okay because in the end it will be all new. We are becoming new creations in Christ, He is shaping us into the people He had originally planned to be.
So please excuse my mess, I'm growing. The Lord is doing construction in my life.
11.30.2011
Continued...
Okay I know that was quick! But sometimes the Lord answers quickly. Right after I posted "A Characteristic of God" I looked in my email box and there was a Proverbs31 devotional waiting for me to read. So within this devotional the Lord gave me a glimpse of His many characteristics. Here it is...
I pour into the Word, a measureless crevice in which my words rest. He asks three words my parched soul thirsts for, “How are you?”
I’m weary. "I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10b (NIV)
I feel alone. “And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:20b (NIV)
I can’t take much more. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28b (NIV)
I pour out, He pours in. An ebb and flow more natural than the ocean’s tides. My needy soul needs His words; needs Him: the Word.
Community is God-given. But friend’s and family’s ability to be leaned on will ebb and flow. Hence our soul’s deepest need: friendship with the Lord. {Inhale deeply that delight: we’re friends with God.} Friends with the unchanging nature of the Word, Jesus.
Will you take His cupped hand, reaching out to hold you, your cares, your friends and family members? Take His hand and take a walk through Him, the Word. Pour your truthful answers into Him and pour yourself into the fields of Scripture. Refreshment awaits. He’s asking, “How are you?”
I'll post more when the Lord shows me more of who He is.
A Characteristic of God
Have you ever studied the multiple characteristics of God? Well I've done few small studies that just cover the surface of who God is. Have you ever thought about how unchanging and constant God is?
Lately my heart has been burdened by the things in my life that aren't or haven't been constant. Things are always changing. Don't get me wrong, I like change most of the time. But lately I have been hating (yes, "hate" is a strong word but it's the truth)... the things in my life that aren't constant or things I can not count on. I suppose it's the things in my life that I can control that I don't mind if they change. But those things that I have NO control over, those things that change when least expected and seem to turn your life upside down that really get to me.
So what's something in my life that is constant, unchanging? There is only one... my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Three in one... Father, Son and Holy Spirit. How someone can be three things and not change is beyond my human comprehension.
So this will be to continued later... when I've really learned the meaning of a constant and unchanging God in my life. I'll be back... it's just going to take some digging!
Lately my heart has been burdened by the things in my life that aren't or haven't been constant. Things are always changing. Don't get me wrong, I like change most of the time. But lately I have been hating (yes, "hate" is a strong word but it's the truth)... the things in my life that aren't constant or things I can not count on. I suppose it's the things in my life that I can control that I don't mind if they change. But those things that I have NO control over, those things that change when least expected and seem to turn your life upside down that really get to me.
So what's something in my life that is constant, unchanging? There is only one... my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Three in one... Father, Son and Holy Spirit. How someone can be three things and not change is beyond my human comprehension.
So this will be to continued later... when I've really learned the meaning of a constant and unchanging God in my life. I'll be back... it's just going to take some digging!
11.09.2011
Seeing the Lord in the Busy
Oh boy has this week been full!!! I just wanted to share a little bit of what's been on my heart and what new things the Lord has placed in my path.
1. Romans 6:4-5 We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in a newness of life. For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we shall certainly be united with him in a resurrection like his.
This verse I have heard every Wednesday from my girls in AWANA. Each one of them is working on memorizing it. So as I sit and listen to them recite it to me, it hits me. I LOVE this verse! Why? Well... let me explain. By the symbolic act of baptism I am showing that I've accepted His gift of a new life. I no longer live the life of darkness and meaninglessness. I can be raised for the dead, from a life full of nothing, death, darkness. Delivered into a life of fullness, joy, light and a clean slate. Wow! That me, a sinner, would be given a second chance.
2. I was presented with a new opportunity to be involved with ministry. I'm going to lead a small group of young girls through a study. This isn't something I would normally do, I don't really like teenagers and I don't like speaking in front of people, so why have I chosen to take on this new task. Well, I'm ready to take a leap of faith. So here I go... diving into something completely unknown. I'm very excited, yet at the same time I'm terrified. I'll have to be vulnerable and bold. I didn't think the Lord would ever take me down this road, and of course he did. I will be praying the He uses me, that His words are heard, not mine. May His Holy Spirit be the one who leads these girls.
3. On a side note... I love the Shellnut girls! My mentor's girls who are 10 and 15. They always make me smile and the oldest is always great about giving me hugs, she just brightens my day. She will be apart of my small group mentioned above and I'm SO excited to have her on board.
4. Now the boring topic of school. I'm overwhelmed this semester with a HUGE research project. I can't wait until I'm past this semester. Then next semester I'm trying to decide between taking two or three classes to finally finish this degree. But with my schedule picking up I'm not sure how I'm going to fit it all in.
5. And finally a prayer to bring all this to a close.
Dear Heavenly Father, I'm so amazed by the many blessings you give. Thank you for speaking to my heart and making things clear and giving me a second chance to be used by you in your kingdom. Thank you for your word and the truth that you give. Will you please be all over this new ministry opportunity? Will you please be preparing the hearts of each girl that will join? We are going to need you, need your wisdom, strength and direction. None of this is possible without you. Will you be preparing my heart as well, give me the ability to guide these girls to you? As my schedule picks up, will you give me the strength to give it my all? Help me to manage my time wisely, and take those moments of rest as well. And one last thing Lord, will you help me finish this project? Help me to focus, stick to it and do my very very best. Thank you for my mentor and her amazing family, what a blessing she has been in my life. Help me to have faith, to trust you moment by moment. In the end it's worth it all, all this will bring you glory in the end. I pray these things in your Holy name, Amen!
1. Romans 6:4-5 We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in a newness of life. For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we shall certainly be united with him in a resurrection like his.
This verse I have heard every Wednesday from my girls in AWANA. Each one of them is working on memorizing it. So as I sit and listen to them recite it to me, it hits me. I LOVE this verse! Why? Well... let me explain. By the symbolic act of baptism I am showing that I've accepted His gift of a new life. I no longer live the life of darkness and meaninglessness. I can be raised for the dead, from a life full of nothing, death, darkness. Delivered into a life of fullness, joy, light and a clean slate. Wow! That me, a sinner, would be given a second chance.
2. I was presented with a new opportunity to be involved with ministry. I'm going to lead a small group of young girls through a study. This isn't something I would normally do, I don't really like teenagers and I don't like speaking in front of people, so why have I chosen to take on this new task. Well, I'm ready to take a leap of faith. So here I go... diving into something completely unknown. I'm very excited, yet at the same time I'm terrified. I'll have to be vulnerable and bold. I didn't think the Lord would ever take me down this road, and of course he did. I will be praying the He uses me, that His words are heard, not mine. May His Holy Spirit be the one who leads these girls.
3. On a side note... I love the Shellnut girls! My mentor's girls who are 10 and 15. They always make me smile and the oldest is always great about giving me hugs, she just brightens my day. She will be apart of my small group mentioned above and I'm SO excited to have her on board.
4. Now the boring topic of school. I'm overwhelmed this semester with a HUGE research project. I can't wait until I'm past this semester. Then next semester I'm trying to decide between taking two or three classes to finally finish this degree. But with my schedule picking up I'm not sure how I'm going to fit it all in.
5. And finally a prayer to bring all this to a close.
Dear Heavenly Father, I'm so amazed by the many blessings you give. Thank you for speaking to my heart and making things clear and giving me a second chance to be used by you in your kingdom. Thank you for your word and the truth that you give. Will you please be all over this new ministry opportunity? Will you please be preparing the hearts of each girl that will join? We are going to need you, need your wisdom, strength and direction. None of this is possible without you. Will you be preparing my heart as well, give me the ability to guide these girls to you? As my schedule picks up, will you give me the strength to give it my all? Help me to manage my time wisely, and take those moments of rest as well. And one last thing Lord, will you help me finish this project? Help me to focus, stick to it and do my very very best. Thank you for my mentor and her amazing family, what a blessing she has been in my life. Help me to have faith, to trust you moment by moment. In the end it's worth it all, all this will bring you glory in the end. I pray these things in your Holy name, Amen!
11.03.2011
The End and the Beginning (again)
In a previous post I wrote about finishing a journal notebook and closing a chapter in my life. Well once again I have filled a notebook completely full of prayers, thoughts, and life experiences. This notebook wasn't as long as the last one, it only took me seven months instead of three years to get through. But that's not the point.
I mentioned earlier that I was so excited to see where the Lord would take me in this new chapter... oh boy... did He take me to some great places. On vacations, new friendships, growth in my job, bigger projects with school, and the most exciting thing... a completely new relationship. This relationship was completely unexpected and totally all God!!
So here I am... starting a new notebook to fill with all new prayers, thoughts, and life experiences, and starting a new chapter in life. A chapter that I've so very excited about, can't wait to see what the Lord does next. Wow... He sure can surprise us! Here I go, jumping in with all I have, letting the Lord have control, trusting Him!
I mentioned earlier that I was so excited to see where the Lord would take me in this new chapter... oh boy... did He take me to some great places. On vacations, new friendships, growth in my job, bigger projects with school, and the most exciting thing... a completely new relationship. This relationship was completely unexpected and totally all God!!
So here I am... starting a new notebook to fill with all new prayers, thoughts, and life experiences, and starting a new chapter in life. A chapter that I've so very excited about, can't wait to see what the Lord does next. Wow... He sure can surprise us! Here I go, jumping in with all I have, letting the Lord have control, trusting Him!
10.22.2011
His Faithfulness
The other day the Lord laid on my heart a few key passages. First in 1 John 1:5-10, in this passage it speaks about walking in darkness and walking in the light. "... God is light, and in him is no darkness at all." We can't say we have fellowship with Him and live in darkness or sin. Since God is light and there is no darkness then the two can't be present together.
I will admit I've had those times in my life when I've chosen to live in darkness, and lie to myself and others as I try to "be" in fellowship. I began to feed myself with a lie of being invincible to sinning. My mind would believe the lies of the enemy, telling me all that I was doing was okay! Verse 8 says this "If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us."
But then the amazing part comes,
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (vs. 9)
Oh... how He sees me as clean. I am free, despite the sin I had chosen to live in, He found me... yes He found me! He chose to save me, bless me and cleanse me. He is faithful when I choose to be unfaithful.
"Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's...He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities." Psalm 103:1-5,10
So amazing that the Lord sees me this way, He chooses to bless me! That He sees me as worthy, gives me a crown. He sees that I am dust, fragile, and in need of care, He shows compassion toward me. I am human, I know not what I do. My mind does what it knows is wrong, the flesh takes over. But if I ask the Lord gives, He gives direction to choose truth, to resist the flesh.
I will admit I've had those times in my life when I've chosen to live in darkness, and lie to myself and others as I try to "be" in fellowship. I began to feed myself with a lie of being invincible to sinning. My mind would believe the lies of the enemy, telling me all that I was doing was okay! Verse 8 says this "If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us."
But then the amazing part comes,
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (vs. 9)
Oh... how He sees me as clean. I am free, despite the sin I had chosen to live in, He found me... yes He found me! He chose to save me, bless me and cleanse me. He is faithful when I choose to be unfaithful.
"Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's...He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities." Psalm 103:1-5,10
So amazing that the Lord sees me this way, He chooses to bless me! That He sees me as worthy, gives me a crown. He sees that I am dust, fragile, and in need of care, He shows compassion toward me. I am human, I know not what I do. My mind does what it knows is wrong, the flesh takes over. But if I ask the Lord gives, He gives direction to choose truth, to resist the flesh.
10.14.2011
Our God
I'm having a great day of praising the Lord. He has given me great JOY and I want to share it with you. This song just really speaks to me today! I have victory in Christ, He brings JOY to my heart! His ways are unfathomable, beyond my comprehension but His way is perfect and true!
10.08.2011
Seek His Will, Have Patience and Trust!
Pray continually - 1 Thessalonians 5:17
Meditate on His Word - Joshua 1:8
With all your heart - Jeremiah 29:13
Seek first His Kingdom - Matthew 6:33
Draw near - Hebrews 11:6
His will be done - Matthew 6:10; 26:39
Have Patience. What does that mean?
Be steadfast - 1 Corinthians 15:58
Keep faith - Colossians 1:23
Walk in it - Psalm 26:3
Neverending - Lamentations 3:22-25
Courage - Psalm 27:14
How about Trust?
When you're afraid - Psalm 56:3
In the Lord - Proverbs 3:5
Blessed is he - Jeremiah 17:7
Delights in him - Psalm 22:8
Are not forsaken - Psalm 8:10
9.28.2011
Full Brain & Early Morning
So it's super early in the morning and I have decided to take advantage of this disadvantage created by my body refusing to go back to sleep. I have a seven page paper due on Friday and for the most part I've just been brainstorming. What a more perfect time to start typing it now, in the early hours of the morning (by the way you'll NEVER find me up this early). Let me tell you the real reason why I'm awake so early.
My mind has been full, I mean crammed packed with "stuff". Besides the fact I feel myself getting this sickness that everyone seems to have at work, my brain is keeping me awake. The Lord has placed something in my life that I've been pondering a lot of the past month. One of those moments where I say "Am I really ready for this Lord?" Being a woman, I analyze everything over and over and over. My mind runs in circles thinking of every possible result of this particular situation.
I've been praying a lot about this particular situation. Telling the Lord that I don't want to make the wrong choice. That control factor is killing me, when it's completely out of my hands it drives me crazy. Even when I know that when the control is in the Lord's hands it's ALWAYS what's best. If things were in my control they would be a disaster. I know from scripture that His ways are best, He knows exactly what I need and when I need it.
So now I just wait. I've asked the Lord repeatedly for patience and peace in this time. There is nothing else for me to do but wait on the Lord to reveal His plan to me. That's not an easy thing to do. Thankfully I have other tasks to be completed and keep my mind off of this matter, but obviously sleeping is a bigger issue here. By the end of the day you'll probably find me passed out on my keyboard at about eight o'clock attempting to finish my seven page paper.
My mind has been full, I mean crammed packed with "stuff". Besides the fact I feel myself getting this sickness that everyone seems to have at work, my brain is keeping me awake. The Lord has placed something in my life that I've been pondering a lot of the past month. One of those moments where I say "Am I really ready for this Lord?" Being a woman, I analyze everything over and over and over. My mind runs in circles thinking of every possible result of this particular situation.
I've been praying a lot about this particular situation. Telling the Lord that I don't want to make the wrong choice. That control factor is killing me, when it's completely out of my hands it drives me crazy. Even when I know that when the control is in the Lord's hands it's ALWAYS what's best. If things were in my control they would be a disaster. I know from scripture that His ways are best, He knows exactly what I need and when I need it.
So now I just wait. I've asked the Lord repeatedly for patience and peace in this time. There is nothing else for me to do but wait on the Lord to reveal His plan to me. That's not an easy thing to do. Thankfully I have other tasks to be completed and keep my mind off of this matter, but obviously sleeping is a bigger issue here. By the end of the day you'll probably find me passed out on my keyboard at about eight o'clock attempting to finish my seven page paper.
9.12.2011
Truth in the Word
LOVE
"Having purified your souls by your OBEDIENCE to the TRUTH for a sincere brotherly love, LOVE one another earnestly from a PURE heart..." 1 Peter 1:22
"Little children, let us NOT love in word or talk but in DEED and in TRUTH." 1 John 3:18
"There is NO fear in love, but PERFECT love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment; whoever fears has not been perfected in LOVE. We LOVE because he first LOVED us." 1 John 18-19
VICTORY
"Death is swallowed up in victory."
"O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?"
"The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the VICTORY through our Lord Jesus Christ." 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
"No, in all things we are more than CONQUERORS through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:37-39
"Let no sin therefore reign in your mortal body, to make you obey its passions... But thanks be to God, that you who were once slaves of sin have become obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching which you were committed, and, having been SET FREE from sin, have become slaves of righteousness." Romans 6:12,17-18
"Having purified your souls by your OBEDIENCE to the TRUTH for a sincere brotherly love, LOVE one another earnestly from a PURE heart..." 1 Peter 1:22
"Little children, let us NOT love in word or talk but in DEED and in TRUTH." 1 John 3:18
"There is NO fear in love, but PERFECT love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment; whoever fears has not been perfected in LOVE. We LOVE because he first LOVED us." 1 John 18-19
VICTORY
"Death is swallowed up in victory."
"O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?"
"The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the VICTORY through our Lord Jesus Christ." 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
"No, in all things we are more than CONQUERORS through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:37-39
"Let no sin therefore reign in your mortal body, to make you obey its passions... But thanks be to God, that you who were once slaves of sin have become obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching which you were committed, and, having been SET FREE from sin, have become slaves of righteousness." Romans 6:12,17-18
8.02.2011
Speaking to the Lord
Well, it's been a while since I just wrote whats been on my heart. I will admit its been a little difficult to put things straight in my head, life has been all over the place it's hard to put the pieces together. My thoughts have been everywhere, good, bad, moody, frustration, laughter, sorrowful, you name it I've experienced it!
One thing the Lord has been placing on my heart lately is prayer. My prayer life isn't the most consistant, it should be. I know there are things I want to pray about and should speak to the Lord about but many times I either forget, don't have the energy, or simply don't have the words to express it.
A few weeks ago I had the great opportunity to house sit with a dear friend. We both decided that we would pray together before we went to bed each night. WOW!!! It was a wonderful, empowering thing. Being able to sit down with someone and open up about our day, share our hearts and the people in our lives that needed prayer, and then to pray for each other. I wanted to do it every night. I got to thinking "why do I have to have another person to pray with?" The Lord is always waiting for me to speak to him, he desires for me to come to him, to engage in conversation and let him speak back to me. Many times I do say little prayers through out my day but many times there is lots of commotion and noise going on. It is distracting and I can't always "hear" what the Lord is trying to say in response. When I prayed with my friend at the closing of our days, it was peaceful and quiet. We were able to open our hearts, clear our minds, and let the Holy Spirit speak.
I'm still working on this, some days I write in a prayer journal, others days I say simple, short prayers as I drift off to sleep. In times of distress I have been on my floor, face down, crying out to the Lord. I like writing because then I'm able to go back, read and see how the Lord has answered a specific prayer or see how it is working on answering one. Many times it's not in the way I expected an answer to come or turn out, but it's always the best way. The Lord is teaching me, he is always molding me into the woman he created me to be. He is my Maker and the one I want to be in charge of my life. In order for him to be in complete control I need to speak to him more often, I need to give my praise and express my heart to him. He wants me to lean on him for everything, in everything!
One thing the Lord has been placing on my heart lately is prayer. My prayer life isn't the most consistant, it should be. I know there are things I want to pray about and should speak to the Lord about but many times I either forget, don't have the energy, or simply don't have the words to express it.
A few weeks ago I had the great opportunity to house sit with a dear friend. We both decided that we would pray together before we went to bed each night. WOW!!! It was a wonderful, empowering thing. Being able to sit down with someone and open up about our day, share our hearts and the people in our lives that needed prayer, and then to pray for each other. I wanted to do it every night. I got to thinking "why do I have to have another person to pray with?" The Lord is always waiting for me to speak to him, he desires for me to come to him, to engage in conversation and let him speak back to me. Many times I do say little prayers through out my day but many times there is lots of commotion and noise going on. It is distracting and I can't always "hear" what the Lord is trying to say in response. When I prayed with my friend at the closing of our days, it was peaceful and quiet. We were able to open our hearts, clear our minds, and let the Holy Spirit speak.
I'm still working on this, some days I write in a prayer journal, others days I say simple, short prayers as I drift off to sleep. In times of distress I have been on my floor, face down, crying out to the Lord. I like writing because then I'm able to go back, read and see how the Lord has answered a specific prayer or see how it is working on answering one. Many times it's not in the way I expected an answer to come or turn out, but it's always the best way. The Lord is teaching me, he is always molding me into the woman he created me to be. He is my Maker and the one I want to be in charge of my life. In order for him to be in complete control I need to speak to him more often, I need to give my praise and express my heart to him. He wants me to lean on him for everything, in everything!
7.06.2011
Never Alone!
This isn't my own writing but it's so wonderfully put that I just had to share. I have had the blessing of having friends just like this. And because of their faithfulness to listen to the Lord's instructions in Galatians 6:2 I have been able to climb out of some deep and dark trenches in my life. I hope all who read this enjoy and I pray that we all can be that friend who shares, grieves, and encourages others.
There are times all of us find ourselves in the trenches in life — those deep places we can’t seem to climb our way out of.
Sometimes those places involve decisions of our own, where we made a conscious choice to do something that wound up hurting us. Other times, someone made a decision for us that put us there, without our permission.
Either way, there is a great need — a need for someone to understand, someone to listen, someone to be available for us, to grieve with us and cry with us — no matter how dark it may get.
I’ve been in the trenches at different times in my own life. I found myself there when I was in college and my pastor-father was facing potential prison. I wound up there, again, when I partied hard to numb the pain, causing even more for myself. Years later, I found myself in a trench when my husband lost his job and was out of work for an extended period of time.
It was in those moments that I longed for someone to say to me, “I’m here with you. I won’t leave you. You will get through this, and I will love you no matter what.” Because at the end of the day, all of us want to know that there is someone who won’t walk away from us, even when they see how ugly things can get in our biggest moments of struggle.
It is the mark of a true friend. It is a rare find.
I once heard a speaker say how in her community, it was not unusual for people to sit with one another for up to seven days during times of loss and grief. As I listened to her speak, I thought about how amazing and important that aspect of community could be to us in our greatest moments of pain — those moments we find ourselves in a deep trench from which we won’t easily emerge.
Our key verse refers to this beautiful aspect of friendship when it says, simply, “Share each other’s burdens…” For the believer, this is not a suggestion. It is something Jesus expects us to do as we represent Him.
One of the best ways we spread the love of Christ is through our selfless acts of love and serving another. It’s not easy to share in someone’s burden, especially when that burden is great. But it is right. It is good. It is what Jesus does for us.
Many of us have been in the trenches, so we understand this hard position. It is where some of us are even now. Some of the greatest ministry Jesus will ever do in our lives is when we find ourselves in a place we can’t maneuver, claw, or dig our way out of. It is the place He meets us because our desperation finally drives us to Him — a place we most need to be.
Friends, let’s keep our eyes and ears open for the opportunity to get in the trenches and share in the burdens of another. Let’s be willing to be there with our friends who find themselves in a position they don’t want to handle alone. Let’s remember the One who is always present in the trenches with us.
And let’s thank Him for His care, presence and faithfulness in the midst of our needs…the trench moments of our life.
Trenches
by Lisa Whittle
Share each other’s burdens…” Galatians 6:2a (NLT)
Sometimes those places involve decisions of our own, where we made a conscious choice to do something that wound up hurting us. Other times, someone made a decision for us that put us there, without our permission.
Either way, there is a great need — a need for someone to understand, someone to listen, someone to be available for us, to grieve with us and cry with us — no matter how dark it may get.
I’ve been in the trenches at different times in my own life. I found myself there when I was in college and my pastor-father was facing potential prison. I wound up there, again, when I partied hard to numb the pain, causing even more for myself. Years later, I found myself in a trench when my husband lost his job and was out of work for an extended period of time.
It was in those moments that I longed for someone to say to me, “I’m here with you. I won’t leave you. You will get through this, and I will love you no matter what.” Because at the end of the day, all of us want to know that there is someone who won’t walk away from us, even when they see how ugly things can get in our biggest moments of struggle.
It is the mark of a true friend. It is a rare find.
I once heard a speaker say how in her community, it was not unusual for people to sit with one another for up to seven days during times of loss and grief. As I listened to her speak, I thought about how amazing and important that aspect of community could be to us in our greatest moments of pain — those moments we find ourselves in a deep trench from which we won’t easily emerge.
Our key verse refers to this beautiful aspect of friendship when it says, simply, “Share each other’s burdens…” For the believer, this is not a suggestion. It is something Jesus expects us to do as we represent Him.
One of the best ways we spread the love of Christ is through our selfless acts of love and serving another. It’s not easy to share in someone’s burden, especially when that burden is great. But it is right. It is good. It is what Jesus does for us.
Many of us have been in the trenches, so we understand this hard position. It is where some of us are even now. Some of the greatest ministry Jesus will ever do in our lives is when we find ourselves in a place we can’t maneuver, claw, or dig our way out of. It is the place He meets us because our desperation finally drives us to Him — a place we most need to be.
Friends, let’s keep our eyes and ears open for the opportunity to get in the trenches and share in the burdens of another. Let’s be willing to be there with our friends who find themselves in a position they don’t want to handle alone. Let’s remember the One who is always present in the trenches with us.
And let’s thank Him for His care, presence and faithfulness in the midst of our needs…the trench moments of our life.
Dear Lord, we are grateful that there is no trench too deep, no place too dark that you can’t reach us. It is because of You we are never alone. Thank You for Your care and faithful love. Help us to share in the burdens of another, and seek You in our greatest moments of need. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
6.22.2011
"I Will Rise..."
You may have heard this song on KLOVE or AIR1 recently. I just absolutely love the lyrics and the message behind it!!! No matter what place I am in, the Lord will help me to rise. Not because of who I am but because He lives in me. His power is so much greater! I will rise out of the ashes left from a fire that seemed to distroy everything, the Lord raises us out of those ashes. He lifts us up, dusts us off and makes us clean again.
6.19.2011
The New T1 & T2
I am so blessed to have her in my life. While visiting her in Pennsylvania, her and I were able to catch up, be open and honest with each other, and renew our lost frienship. What a blessing to have a friend that cares so much, she has such a HUGE heart! It was just like old times... cooking, shopping, T1 and T2 adventures! I miss her so much and I want to move to PA just to live close to her. I couldn't have asked for a better friend... she accepts me for me, forgives me when I've done wrong, laughs with me, and encourages me to keep my head up. She reminds me of how amazing our Lord and Savior is, and that he has a specific plan. She has a huge heart for the Lord and she trusts him completely with her own life.
Love you Tracy!
5.30.2011
Isaiah 43:1-4a
"But now, this is what the LORD says - He who created you, Tonya, he who formed you, Tonya: 'Fear not, for I have redeemed you by name; Tonya you are mine. When you pass through the waters Tonya, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire Tonya, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you a blaze. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. Since you are precious and honored in my sight and because I love you Tonya'"
This is a passage that I read in a devotional a few weeks ago. Insert your name where mine is and it can be the Lord speaking directly to you.
This is a passage that I read in a devotional a few weeks ago. Insert your name where mine is and it can be the Lord speaking directly to you.
5.19.2011
Forgiven & Redeemed
"Bless the LORD, O my soul, And forget none of His benefits; Who pardons all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases; Who redeems your life from the pit, Who crowns you with lovingkindness and compassion;" Psalm 103:2-4
As I stood on that stage, the lights were bright. I saw people but I didn't pay attention to who was watching. I was just so excited yet overwhelmed by the Holy Spirit allowing me to take that step of faith. I knew the people I love were surrounding me and supporting me. That moment on stage went so quick! Like BAM it was over! Even though I did have a fear before that day that I would make it about something it wasn't suppose to be about, I didn't let it! It definitely was about my Jesus, my Lord, the Redeemer, the Forgiver. I had victory that day because on that day the King of Kings and Lord of Lords gave me freedom through the Cross!
All the praise and glory goes to Him, the one and only God. And thank you Brandi, Jim, Pastor Paul, the Shellnut Family, Wayne, Sandy, and everyone else who was there to support me! Thank you for making this day possible for me. You are all a blessing from the Lord.
5.14.2011
It's Time For Moving Past
The Lord spoke through Jim on Tuesday night. He confirmed some points and truths that the Lord had already been showing me. In 1 Corinthians 7:29-31 Paul writes about the earthly things that can take over our every thought and actions. One mentioned is mourning or weeping, this is true in my own life. Paul tells us to move past these times, don't dwell in them for they will pass away. One day I will be able to be free from the mourning, it won't even matter. It's not for me to worry about, the Lord will take care of it. So why not choose today... to live for a greater and more joyful purpose?!
In the book The Invisible War by Chip Ingram, that I'm reading with my mentor, it spoke about the breastplate of righteousness from the armor of God. Having the breastplate of righteousness frees me from all sin, gets rid of all the unrighteousness in me. I am free, no longer a victim... so why am I still living in it? Reliving that moment over and over. The author wrote "You stand your ground because you believe what God tells you. You are complete in Christ, you are pure in Him, and you reject the trash-talking that evil, demonic whisper is spouting off at you... The time to feel victimized and overwhelmed is over."
I no longer have to live in those heart breaking circumstances. The Lord has given me so many things that are greater, a life full of grace, truth, hope and a future. He wants me to apply the truth NOW, rely on the power that I presently possess. I have so much ahead of me and I don't want to waist my time mourning over the heartache I have experienced. It's time to rejoice because the Lord has rescued me and given me hope, joy and purpose. He loves me and desires to use me for the glory of His kingdom.
So where do I go from here Lord? Where do you want to take me? Teach me? Show me your plan and purpose.
In the book The Invisible War by Chip Ingram, that I'm reading with my mentor, it spoke about the breastplate of righteousness from the armor of God. Having the breastplate of righteousness frees me from all sin, gets rid of all the unrighteousness in me. I am free, no longer a victim... so why am I still living in it? Reliving that moment over and over. The author wrote "You stand your ground because you believe what God tells you. You are complete in Christ, you are pure in Him, and you reject the trash-talking that evil, demonic whisper is spouting off at you... The time to feel victimized and overwhelmed is over."
I no longer have to live in those heart breaking circumstances. The Lord has given me so many things that are greater, a life full of grace, truth, hope and a future. He wants me to apply the truth NOW, rely on the power that I presently possess. I have so much ahead of me and I don't want to waist my time mourning over the heartache I have experienced. It's time to rejoice because the Lord has rescued me and given me hope, joy and purpose. He loves me and desires to use me for the glory of His kingdom.
So where do I go from here Lord? Where do you want to take me? Teach me? Show me your plan and purpose.
5.07.2011
No Defeat Here!
O Praise the Lord for victory and JOY! When my heart is heavy I tend to lash out against the things in my life that have hurt me. I get angry and throw a pitty party... but no more! I choose to be joyful, to remember who the Lord has created me to be and how He values me! Isaiah 43:4 says "You are precious and honored in My sight and I love you." This is true for all of His people, not just me.
We are chosen, called, honored, treasured, gifted, precious, and loved by our King!
We are chosen, called, honored, treasured, gifted, precious, and loved by our King!
"Therefore my heart is glad and my glory rejoices; My flesh also will dwell securely." Psalm 16:9
Yes, we will face hard times, when we are weighed down by trials. If we choose to face those trials with the joy that the Lord gives then they suddenly seem so much lighter. When I choose to have bravery in the face of the evil one I find victory because of the joy and strength the Lord promises. There will be times when we have to put on a fake face of happiness and confront those trials head on, but there comes blessings after. Blessings of victory and freedom! Satan can not defeat us, we will always have victory in Christ Jesus!
4.28.2011
Sisters
This one is all about my sisters, the girls who help keep me focused. The Lord has blessed me with an amazing support system and I can always count on them to lift me up when I'm down. Without these women in my life and the inspiration they have been over the last couple years I probably wouldn't be the woman I am today. They have seen me through ups and downs, sorrows and rejoicing, heartache and excitement. 
So here they are... CELEBRATING the Godly women in my life.
4.22.2011
I'll Be Honest
To be completely honest I can feel discouragement creeping up on me. The feeling that things aren't going my way and I don't understand why. Wanting to question everything, throw a fit and ask God 'why?'. Maybe this discouragement is trying to over take me because of the Easter season and the changes that I've chosen to make in my life.
Looking back a few months ago I see a huge trial that I was so afraid to face, I looked for any way around it, to not have to go through it. So many difficult situations were being thrown at my face, and everytime I had to question why. Doubt was taking over and I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. There wasn't much hope inside me that I would make it out alive. With the encouragement and support of so many wonderful brothers and sisters, and the love of my Heavenly Father I have overcome a huge part of it, I can see the end in sight (it's definitely not over though). But yesterday was one of those days that I began to not see things in God's eyes again. Hopefully today won't be that way.
There are some fears that are lingering in my mind and heart. Fear of how other people see me, those that don't know the details of my trial and don't see the change that the Lord is doing in me. Especially a particular person, how do they see me? Do they talk about me to others? What do they say about me? Good or bad things? Why do they show actions of not caring? I truly just want people to see Christ in me. If I could explain the situation to everyone and they would see God's hand in all of it. I don't want to be stuck in this fear, I am trying to seek after God's approval and how He values me. And His approval is the only one that matters. It's not an easy thing to do.
Looking back a few months ago I see a huge trial that I was so afraid to face, I looked for any way around it, to not have to go through it. So many difficult situations were being thrown at my face, and everytime I had to question why. Doubt was taking over and I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. There wasn't much hope inside me that I would make it out alive. With the encouragement and support of so many wonderful brothers and sisters, and the love of my Heavenly Father I have overcome a huge part of it, I can see the end in sight (it's definitely not over though). But yesterday was one of those days that I began to not see things in God's eyes again. Hopefully today won't be that way.
There are some fears that are lingering in my mind and heart. Fear of how other people see me, those that don't know the details of my trial and don't see the change that the Lord is doing in me. Especially a particular person, how do they see me? Do they talk about me to others? What do they say about me? Good or bad things? Why do they show actions of not caring? I truly just want people to see Christ in me. If I could explain the situation to everyone and they would see God's hand in all of it. I don't want to be stuck in this fear, I am trying to seek after God's approval and how He values me. And His approval is the only one that matters. It's not an easy thing to do.
4.19.2011
Another One of Those Days
Today is another one of those days when I would love to just find a big table, spread out my bible, notebooks, etc. and spend the day studying His word. I also would enjoy a large cup of coffee and a friend to chat about how AMAZING our God is!
Praise music playing in the background I'm putting off getting ready for work. But I must remember that I have to put action to what God says. He says to live a life in service to others. So many times I go through my day and forget to remember who He is and that I'm His disciple, He has called me to lead people to Him. It seems like I don't remember unless there is praise music playing... if only I could have my ipod in my ear at work. It shouldn't matter, I should have His word memorized and always playing in my head. I'm so horrible at memorizing the scriptures. I do find myself in little moments of each day praying, to speak short prayers about people that come to mind. I know I can't just begin a long, drawn out prayer in detail about them, but I can simply say "Lord bless them today." The Lord knows my heart and He knows exactly what's going through their hearts as well.
So even though I would love to just spend the day walking with Jesus, I still can spend my day with Him. If I make a conscious effort to serve others with a smile, speak short prayers for those that come to mind, and quote scripture through out my day I can still spend my day with Him. He is always with me so why not acknowledge that He is.
Praise music playing in the background I'm putting off getting ready for work. But I must remember that I have to put action to what God says. He says to live a life in service to others. So many times I go through my day and forget to remember who He is and that I'm His disciple, He has called me to lead people to Him. It seems like I don't remember unless there is praise music playing... if only I could have my ipod in my ear at work. It shouldn't matter, I should have His word memorized and always playing in my head. I'm so horrible at memorizing the scriptures. I do find myself in little moments of each day praying, to speak short prayers about people that come to mind. I know I can't just begin a long, drawn out prayer in detail about them, but I can simply say "Lord bless them today." The Lord knows my heart and He knows exactly what's going through their hearts as well.
So even though I would love to just spend the day walking with Jesus, I still can spend my day with Him. If I make a conscious effort to serve others with a smile, speak short prayers for those that come to mind, and quote scripture through out my day I can still spend my day with Him. He is always with me so why not acknowledge that He is.
4.15.2011
A Changed Life
Check out today's devo from Proverbs31 Ministries! Pardon Me by T. Suzanne EllerI can't really add anything to it. I hope you take it as it is. The verses mentioned are so powerful and put into simple words whats been on my heart. I want to be a changed person. I don't want to hide my sinfulness, I want to show it to God and ask for His forgiveness. I don't want to go deeper in the mud, I desire for Him to pull me out of this pit, to give me victory. He gets ALL the GLORY! Not because of me, but because of the strength He has put in me by His Holy Spirit living inside my soul. I want everyone to see the power Christ has to turn your life around, to put your feet back on the right path, to free you from your sin and He will never break promises!
This doesn't mean I won't ever face trials and my life will be perfect from now on... NO WAY! John 16:33 says "...In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world." We will face trials but we must have courage to face those trials. As for the Lord to prepare our hearts, to strength us. I have to do this daily, I have to make it a habit to rely on Him daily... sometimes moment by moment. I want to dig deeper into His love for me, I want to grow in my desire to be close to Him, I want Him to be my everything, to be my only desire in my life, the only thing that matters, to serve and please my KING!
I am so broken, sinful, and wounded but I am forever changed by the grace of God!
4.10.2011
The End
As I filled up the last page of my prayer journal tonight I began to flip back through the pages. I began writing in this book back in November of 2008. My mind began to replay the events that have taken place in my life since that date. So many ups and downs, lots of decisions made and some very average days too. Full time school to now having a full time job! Singleness, to relationship, to singleness again. Taking care of my mother in the hospital to creating my own life and home away from home. All of this is part of growing up... but it's a huge part of life! I choose to look at it as a learning process. The Lord orchestrating each event and showing me how He plans to use it for His glory.
I am ending this book and beginning a new book. I am closing a chapter and God is starting to write the next chapter. He is going to show me what's next... I'm SO EXCITED to see where He will lead me next. I never thought in my wildest imagination would I ever experience such incredible, challenging, exciting, restoring and surprising things in my life. But of course, because my God is bigger and able to do far more than anyone can imagine. So BRING IT ON! I'm ready, the Lord is on my side!4.09.2011
Battleground Not a Playground
Understanding satans schemes is very important. We must learn to aware of how satan may be trying to distract us. He could be using everyday things like: worry, self-reliance, anger, bitterness, and our vulnerability. Satan can use those things to attack us a make us believe that our God doesn't have our best interest in mind. They make us question God.
I've been reading The Invisible War by Chip Ingram and WOW! it's given me a new perspective on what the Bible says about the plans of satan and how God uses those to teach us. In the book of Job it talks about how God allowed satan to shake up things in Job's life, but it was still in God's control. He wasn't going to allow satan to destroy him completely. The Lord used all those trials to teach Job. We have to see God's perspective in the midst of our trials, we can't focus on the hurt and pain. God's perspective is for the good to come from it, He desires for us to grow closer to Him through the trials. He desires for us to rely on Him completely. If we aren't prepared for the battle then it's going to be more difficult to see that God is all over it.
How can we be prepared?
Matthew 6:33 says "Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need."
Seeking the Lord wholeheartedly, completely, with all you have. Making Him your focus everyday, even if that means daily giving up things that hold you back. For me I have to surrender daily, my worries about people I care for deeply. Every morning I have to ask the Lord to take those worries, because if I don't give them up they become my focus. Also being prepared can be as simple as asking our Heavenly Father for the armor to fight this battle. Paul tells us about the armor of God in Ephesians. The Lord is on our side and He freely gives us the tools to fight the battle. Are we going to ask for them and put them to use? With this we can win, we can and will defeat the enemy. Yes Satans power is scary, but God is so much bigger and more capable than the enemy.
So I encourage you to dig deep into God's Word, discover all the He has to offer you. He desires to know you personally and fight this battle with you. No one said it would be easy, but the end reward is so much greater, surrender to letting the Lord be your leader, He knows exactly how to defeat the enemy.
I've been reading The Invisible War by Chip Ingram and WOW! it's given me a new perspective on what the Bible says about the plans of satan and how God uses those to teach us. In the book of Job it talks about how God allowed satan to shake up things in Job's life, but it was still in God's control. He wasn't going to allow satan to destroy him completely. The Lord used all those trials to teach Job. We have to see God's perspective in the midst of our trials, we can't focus on the hurt and pain. God's perspective is for the good to come from it, He desires for us to grow closer to Him through the trials. He desires for us to rely on Him completely. If we aren't prepared for the battle then it's going to be more difficult to see that God is all over it.
How can we be prepared?
Matthew 6:33 says "Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need."
Seeking the Lord wholeheartedly, completely, with all you have. Making Him your focus everyday, even if that means daily giving up things that hold you back. For me I have to surrender daily, my worries about people I care for deeply. Every morning I have to ask the Lord to take those worries, because if I don't give them up they become my focus. Also being prepared can be as simple as asking our Heavenly Father for the armor to fight this battle. Paul tells us about the armor of God in Ephesians. The Lord is on our side and He freely gives us the tools to fight the battle. Are we going to ask for them and put them to use? With this we can win, we can and will defeat the enemy. Yes Satans power is scary, but God is so much bigger and more capable than the enemy.
So I encourage you to dig deep into God's Word, discover all the He has to offer you. He desires to know you personally and fight this battle with you. No one said it would be easy, but the end reward is so much greater, surrender to letting the Lord be your leader, He knows exactly how to defeat the enemy.
4.02.2011
"It is finished!"
I had the great privilage to serve at the Get Real youth conference this weekend. It was a completely new experience to me but I was willing to jump in with all I had. I wanted to just bless others and go wherever they needed me. Little did I know God had something planned for me. It was the smallest, shortest moment, yet it was HUGE!
The speaker began describing Christ's death on the cross. In John 19:30 it reads... "Therefore when Jesus had received the sour wine, He said, 'It is finished!' And He bowed His head and gave up His spirit."
Kent, the speaker at the conference, quoted this verse and when he spoke "it is finish!" I heard the voice of the Lord. I could feel it inside me, like I could audibly hear the Lord speaking directly to me. The Lord was telling me... this trial, this situation you've been laboring and toiling with, the past mistakes and sins it's all FINISHED!!! I am no longer to worry about, dwell, labor, or sort through. This chapter of my life is complete, closed and I can move on to start the next chapter. The Lord has said "I will take it, you're finished with it and I want you to give it up to me." In order for me to completely focus on what the Lord has for me next I must let go of it. I am so excited to see where the Lord leads me next and I don't want anything to hold me back.
I'm all yours Lord, take me as I am and use me for your kingdom. May I be your servant and as I surrender to your will may I walk with faith, always relying on you 100%.
The speaker began describing Christ's death on the cross. In John 19:30 it reads... "Therefore when Jesus had received the sour wine, He said, 'It is finished!' And He bowed His head and gave up His spirit."
Kent, the speaker at the conference, quoted this verse and when he spoke "it is finish!" I heard the voice of the Lord. I could feel it inside me, like I could audibly hear the Lord speaking directly to me. The Lord was telling me... this trial, this situation you've been laboring and toiling with, the past mistakes and sins it's all FINISHED!!! I am no longer to worry about, dwell, labor, or sort through. This chapter of my life is complete, closed and I can move on to start the next chapter. The Lord has said "I will take it, you're finished with it and I want you to give it up to me." In order for me to completely focus on what the Lord has for me next I must let go of it. I am so excited to see where the Lord leads me next and I don't want anything to hold me back.
I'm all yours Lord, take me as I am and use me for your kingdom. May I be your servant and as I surrender to your will may I walk with faith, always relying on you 100%.
3.30.2011
Discouraged turned to Joy!
I am continually encouraged by the Proverbs 31 Ministries. What a wonderful thing the Lord is doing through this ministry, He deserves all the honor and glory for how they have reached people for Christ and encouraged many!
My day began in discouragement and satan had a plan to keep me there. The Lord had a bigger plan, He knew that I would feel discouraged but He wanted to bring me great joy. He blessed my day with coffee with an amazing sister, which brought great encouragement. I am so thankful that I can be honest and express my true feelings without fear. Just the simple reminder that the Lord is on my side, waiting for me to turn to Him daily, sometimes in every moment. To die to myself every day and yield to His will in each moment. As Psalm 86:15 says ... He is slow to anger, compassionate, gracious, and always faithful and true. His mercy is new every morning! (Lamentations 3:22-26). His desire is our faithfulness to Him!
2 Corinthians 12:9 talks about boasting in my weakness because in it I am strong. When I am weak, His power is used in me, I have strength because of His Holy Spirit that lives and moves in me. We all have those days that we are so discouraged and overwhelmed by the situations in our lives, but we can find great joy in Christ. He knows my hurt and the pain I must endure, He desires to take those burdens from me. Will I give it up? Will I let Him free me from the sin that holds me down and discourages me? Is it keeping me from being used by Him?
I can be honest with my God, He already knows my heart and He wants to bring me freedom. I'm trying hard to let Him lead and carry me though this time. Each day brings something new, a new somthing that I have to surrender, ask for His help and strength to get through it (Isaiah 43). He is always faithful to answer me!
My day has ended with joy! Joy of knowing that my God is with me! He cares and He has a great things planned for me! He loves me for who I am, His creation!
My day began in discouragement and satan had a plan to keep me there. The Lord had a bigger plan, He knew that I would feel discouraged but He wanted to bring me great joy. He blessed my day with coffee with an amazing sister, which brought great encouragement. I am so thankful that I can be honest and express my true feelings without fear. Just the simple reminder that the Lord is on my side, waiting for me to turn to Him daily, sometimes in every moment. To die to myself every day and yield to His will in each moment. As Psalm 86:15 says ... He is slow to anger, compassionate, gracious, and always faithful and true. His mercy is new every morning! (Lamentations 3:22-26). His desire is our faithfulness to Him!
2 Corinthians 12:9 talks about boasting in my weakness because in it I am strong. When I am weak, His power is used in me, I have strength because of His Holy Spirit that lives and moves in me. We all have those days that we are so discouraged and overwhelmed by the situations in our lives, but we can find great joy in Christ. He knows my hurt and the pain I must endure, He desires to take those burdens from me. Will I give it up? Will I let Him free me from the sin that holds me down and discourages me? Is it keeping me from being used by Him?
I can be honest with my God, He already knows my heart and He wants to bring me freedom. I'm trying hard to let Him lead and carry me though this time. Each day brings something new, a new somthing that I have to surrender, ask for His help and strength to get through it (Isaiah 43). He is always faithful to answer me!
My day has ended with joy! Joy of knowing that my God is with me! He cares and He has a great things planned for me! He loves me for who I am, His creation!
3.29.2011
Freedom in Fasting
Today I read a devotional on Proverbs 31 Ministries website. It talked about the importance of fasting and how there is power when we sacrifice something.
Resently I have given up Facebook, not because it's a sacrifice but because there were so many things on there that satan was using to attack me. Also it can become a meaningless distraction from some other important things. So far I've done well. It's very freeing to not have the distraction. At first I thought it might be extremely difficult to keep myself away from clicking on the link and scanning the page for news/drama in other peoples lives. Surprisingly it wasn't that hard not to click on it. I started sending cards and using other ways of communication to contact friends. Yes I may be missing the happy moments on facebook, like my friend Abby who just got engaged. But life goes on, my life doesn't only exist on facebook. My value isn't found in facebook.
My value is found in Christ, my Creator! He has so much more for me than what Facebook can offer. I has carried me through one of the most difficult places I've ever been, He has healed the most wounded parts of my heart, showed me that I can trust His plan. Even though it seems like it's crazy and doesn't make sense to me, His plan is whats best; in the end, when it's all over I will see and know why His plan is best. Yes I'm not perfect, I have my days that I doubt and begin to question, but He quickly reminds me of His power and purpose in my life. What about you? Where do you place your value? Are you listening and obeying the calls that the Lord gives you? You can do it! His ways are best!
Resently I have given up Facebook, not because it's a sacrifice but because there were so many things on there that satan was using to attack me. Also it can become a meaningless distraction from some other important things. So far I've done well. It's very freeing to not have the distraction. At first I thought it might be extremely difficult to keep myself away from clicking on the link and scanning the page for news/drama in other peoples lives. Surprisingly it wasn't that hard not to click on it. I started sending cards and using other ways of communication to contact friends. Yes I may be missing the happy moments on facebook, like my friend Abby who just got engaged. But life goes on, my life doesn't only exist on facebook. My value isn't found in facebook.
My value is found in Christ, my Creator! He has so much more for me than what Facebook can offer. I has carried me through one of the most difficult places I've ever been, He has healed the most wounded parts of my heart, showed me that I can trust His plan. Even though it seems like it's crazy and doesn't make sense to me, His plan is whats best; in the end, when it's all over I will see and know why His plan is best. Yes I'm not perfect, I have my days that I doubt and begin to question, but He quickly reminds me of His power and purpose in my life. What about you? Where do you place your value? Are you listening and obeying the calls that the Lord gives you? You can do it! His ways are best!
3.23.2011
My Jesus
MY JESUS!
I love the sound of it! He truly is mine, and He is yours too! My mind can not fathom the deepness of His love. Even in the midst of my great trials and frustrations, even the consequences I face for my sin, He is right there with me, inside me, giving me strength to carry on. This might sound like a jumbled mess but it's whats on my heart tonight.
He is my Rock, Comforter, Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, Healer, Creator, Refuge, Sustainer! Holy is He! There is no one greater, no one higher, no one like our God! Mighty to save! Redeemer, friend, unchangable, always faithful, trustworthy, and leader! He is always speaking, moving, healing, and leading. He desires for me to trust and obey him, let Him lead, to let Him be the Lord of my life, and to lean on Him.
When I am so weak He wants to fight my battle, when nothing is left and I'm empty He wants to fill my cup and give me joy. He saved my soul and sacrificed everything for me, to free me from the guilt of my sin and proclaim His name to all the world! I am free! He is able and willing to help me! I am so undeserving of the love and healing He brings. He is the One that keeps my going each day, He will never leave me, always staying right by my side. When I feel completely alone, He is right there to keep my company. When it feels like I've lost it all, He is my everything, what I cling to. I am His, my soul belongs to Him and one day I will be in Heaven praising His name. He has plans for me far beyond anything I know, He has started a work in my life and He will complete it. I will remain faithful and true, I will walk with Him daily and remember the promises He has for me. Satan can not devour me... the Lord is my protector! I will sing His praises, I will rejoice and embrace His teaching.
He is My Jesus!!!!
I love the sound of it! He truly is mine, and He is yours too! My mind can not fathom the deepness of His love. Even in the midst of my great trials and frustrations, even the consequences I face for my sin, He is right there with me, inside me, giving me strength to carry on. This might sound like a jumbled mess but it's whats on my heart tonight.
He is my Rock, Comforter, Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, Healer, Creator, Refuge, Sustainer! Holy is He! There is no one greater, no one higher, no one like our God! Mighty to save! Redeemer, friend, unchangable, always faithful, trustworthy, and leader! He is always speaking, moving, healing, and leading. He desires for me to trust and obey him, let Him lead, to let Him be the Lord of my life, and to lean on Him.
When I am so weak He wants to fight my battle, when nothing is left and I'm empty He wants to fill my cup and give me joy. He saved my soul and sacrificed everything for me, to free me from the guilt of my sin and proclaim His name to all the world! I am free! He is able and willing to help me! I am so undeserving of the love and healing He brings. He is the One that keeps my going each day, He will never leave me, always staying right by my side. When I feel completely alone, He is right there to keep my company. When it feels like I've lost it all, He is my everything, what I cling to. I am His, my soul belongs to Him and one day I will be in Heaven praising His name. He has plans for me far beyond anything I know, He has started a work in my life and He will complete it. I will remain faithful and true, I will walk with Him daily and remember the promises He has for me. Satan can not devour me... the Lord is my protector! I will sing His praises, I will rejoice and embrace His teaching.
He is My Jesus!!!!
3.01.2011
Forever My King!
Do you ever have a day where all you want to do is curl up on the couch, turn on Klove radio and dig into your Bible? Today is one of those days for me. I would much rather spend the day, praising, reading, and praying. Instead of going to work I would like to share with friends, talk about the Lord and how AMAZING He is.
Even though satan has already tried to make his way into my day, the Lord has blessed me and kept the evil one from discourageing me. I'm so blessed to have a Father who is always watching out for me. He is... almighty, knows all, sees all, speaks all, powerful, gracious, merciful, healer, unchanging, eternal, compassionate, redeemer... just to name a few.
These a few verses I read today.
Psalm 71:19,20 - For Your righteousness, O God, reaches to the heavens, You who have done great things; O God, who is like You? You who have shown me many troubles and distresses Will revive me again, And will bring me up again from the depths of the earth.
12 - O God, do not be far from me; O my God, hasten to my help!
Hebrews 10:35-36 - Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised.
In the midst of a great trial and learning to trust in God a completely new way, I am constantly reminded that my God is my healer and will restore my soul. When I am so down and feel completely hopeless, if I simply ask for His help, for I am completely incapable to do this on my own, He will come to rescue me. He holds me in His hands and His protection is so much greater than my own. He reminds me of the blessings I will have once I surrender and let Him lead each step of my life. And all the glory goes to Him... I don't deserve any of it. I am only able to realize these things because He chose me as His daughter, and He chooses to speak to me.
Even though satan has already tried to make his way into my day, the Lord has blessed me and kept the evil one from discourageing me. I'm so blessed to have a Father who is always watching out for me. He is... almighty, knows all, sees all, speaks all, powerful, gracious, merciful, healer, unchanging, eternal, compassionate, redeemer... just to name a few.
These a few verses I read today.
Psalm 71:19,20 - For Your righteousness, O God, reaches to the heavens, You who have done great things; O God, who is like You? You who have shown me many troubles and distresses Will revive me again, And will bring me up again from the depths of the earth.
12 - O God, do not be far from me; O my God, hasten to my help!
Hebrews 10:35-36 - Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised.
In the midst of a great trial and learning to trust in God a completely new way, I am constantly reminded that my God is my healer and will restore my soul. When I am so down and feel completely hopeless, if I simply ask for His help, for I am completely incapable to do this on my own, He will come to rescue me. He holds me in His hands and His protection is so much greater than my own. He reminds me of the blessings I will have once I surrender and let Him lead each step of my life. And all the glory goes to Him... I don't deserve any of it. I am only able to realize these things because He chose me as His daughter, and He chooses to speak to me.
2.05.2011
The Little Things
Do you ever stop to reflect on the little blessings in your life? The tiny activities we just don't really think about.
Today I was blessed with spending time with the Shellnutt Family. I got to help them with their chores, get them ready and off to basketball tryouts, and enjoy a wonderful lunch made my "Betty Crocker". Then as the afternoon went on I was asked to paint Miss Isabel's finger nails, and she in turn got to paint mine. By the way she did a wonderful job, I feel like my fingers are full of magic... they are so brightly colored! I enjoyed some fun times helping "Betty Crocker" figure out facebook and bring her back to the 21st century. A very simple day but such a huge blessing. I didn't spend any money, had some great quality time with some of God's great people, at the end of the day I have no regrets. I love being able to invest into their lives and get the same in return. Isabel was so excited and felt so privilaged to do the simplest thing as painting my nails. Then she wanted me to do her hair. It was like having a little sister, it was such a blessing to bless her with that quality time.
And I enjoyed the company of the boys too! They are so full of life and don't have a worry... oh how I wish my life was free of worry at times. If that was true then I doubt those sweet moments of little blessings wouldn't be so exciting. It's great to take time out of my CRAZY schedule and focus on doing something for someone else for once.
Today I was blessed with spending time with the Shellnutt Family. I got to help them with their chores, get them ready and off to basketball tryouts, and enjoy a wonderful lunch made my "Betty Crocker". Then as the afternoon went on I was asked to paint Miss Isabel's finger nails, and she in turn got to paint mine. By the way she did a wonderful job, I feel like my fingers are full of magic... they are so brightly colored! I enjoyed some fun times helping "Betty Crocker" figure out facebook and bring her back to the 21st century. A very simple day but such a huge blessing. I didn't spend any money, had some great quality time with some of God's great people, at the end of the day I have no regrets. I love being able to invest into their lives and get the same in return. Isabel was so excited and felt so privilaged to do the simplest thing as painting my nails. Then she wanted me to do her hair. It was like having a little sister, it was such a blessing to bless her with that quality time.
And I enjoyed the company of the boys too! They are so full of life and don't have a worry... oh how I wish my life was free of worry at times. If that was true then I doubt those sweet moments of little blessings wouldn't be so exciting. It's great to take time out of my CRAZY schedule and focus on doing something for someone else for once.
1.29.2011
Birthdays
With my birthday approaching on the 31st, it always brings back memories. Over the last few years of my birthday celebrations I've had some interesting ones. A few of them have come with some trials that made them huge milestones in my life. Here is a quick over view...
15th - Just got out of the hospital after recovering from an infection that kept me there for 22 days.
16th - My youth pastor resigned from his position without an explanation. Just left! Lots of hurt involved but I would say that was a huge step in my walk with the Lord. Discovered my life verse, Proverbs 3:5,6.
17th - Grounded for the first time because I skipped a couple classes in school :)
20th - Got a job interview here in Billings. The beginning of my adventures in Billings. The interview went great and I got the job as a nanny.
21st - I was facing some great heartships with a relationship. Trying my best to make the right choices before things got to difficult. Spent some time at a retreat with wonderful Godly Brothers and Sisteres.
And now it's the present time. On monday I will be turning 22 and once again facing some heartships with a relationship. Having to deal with the consequences of my choices. I guess you could say that I'm really growing in my relationshp with the Lord. I've learned so much this last year, the Lord has taught me things I never thought I would face. As much heartache I've experienced in the last year I know my heart will one day be healed. It may have scares but those are proof of my testimony. I must remain faithful and have bravery in the face of my fears. My life verse has been showing up. And God has been showing me some great pieces of scripture to help shape me and teach me (2 Corinthians 12:9)
15th - Just got out of the hospital after recovering from an infection that kept me there for 22 days.
16th - My youth pastor resigned from his position without an explanation. Just left! Lots of hurt involved but I would say that was a huge step in my walk with the Lord. Discovered my life verse, Proverbs 3:5,6.
17th - Grounded for the first time because I skipped a couple classes in school :)
20th - Got a job interview here in Billings. The beginning of my adventures in Billings. The interview went great and I got the job as a nanny.
21st - I was facing some great heartships with a relationship. Trying my best to make the right choices before things got to difficult. Spent some time at a retreat with wonderful Godly Brothers and Sisteres.
And now it's the present time. On monday I will be turning 22 and once again facing some heartships with a relationship. Having to deal with the consequences of my choices. I guess you could say that I'm really growing in my relationshp with the Lord. I've learned so much this last year, the Lord has taught me things I never thought I would face. As much heartache I've experienced in the last year I know my heart will one day be healed. It may have scares but those are proof of my testimony. I must remain faithful and have bravery in the face of my fears. My life verse has been showing up. And God has been showing me some great pieces of scripture to help shape me and teach me (2 Corinthians 12:9)
1.21.2011
Bravery & Obedience
At my church I have started helping out with our kids worship program on Sunday mornings. The Lord told me to change where I was serving and WOW have I been blessed! The last couple weeks God has taught me a lot and revealed things to me about decisions that needed to be made in my life. About a week ago we talked about Esther with the kids. She showed great bravery with the Jews and made choices that weren't so easy. Despite her fear of what the kind would think of her she was obedient and did as the Lord ask her to do. This next week we are studying about the 3 men who were thrown into the furnace. There remained obedient to the Lord.
For me lately I have been facing some decisions and trials that call for some great bravery. Facing the fears I have and being obedient about the directions the Lord is leading me in. Proverbs 3:5,6 has been a huge passage in my life. Trusting the Lord and letting Him lead. I am learning how to apply that more and more now. Pleasing God and not men. I am to be obedient to the Lord, study His word and follow His direction for me.
For me lately I have been facing some decisions and trials that call for some great bravery. Facing the fears I have and being obedient about the directions the Lord is leading me in. Proverbs 3:5,6 has been a huge passage in my life. Trusting the Lord and letting Him lead. I am learning how to apply that more and more now. Pleasing God and not men. I am to be obedient to the Lord, study His word and follow His direction for me.
1.20.2011
Restore My Joy
The Lord is working on my heart! Healing, restoration, strength, joy, power, trust, satisfaction. I want the Father to be the one that restores my Joy! My joy has been lost for the past year, I knew something was missing but couldn't seem to put my finger on it. Today I realized it is the JOY of the LORD! That is where my strength comes from. It seems like I would just go from day to day without real joy in my heart. I tried so hard to get everything done that I seemed to be only doing for other people. "What about me?" What am I doing for myself? What brings me joy? My Heavenly Father gives that joy, nothing else can bring it to me, not even a person.
Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of Your salvation
And sustain in me with a willing spirit.
I am God's child, why can't I have joy in knowing that He is my King. He died for me and my sins, so I may be free from the guilt and shame. There is joy in knowing that I am FREE! He offers peace and joy! I pray that He restores my joy and love for Him everyday! Also that many others will get a chance to taste of the sweet joy He has to give, and offers to everyone!
Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of Your salvation
And sustain in me with a willing spirit.
I am God's child, why can't I have joy in knowing that He is my King. He died for me and my sins, so I may be free from the guilt and shame. There is joy in knowing that I am FREE! He offers peace and joy! I pray that He restores my joy and love for Him everyday! Also that many others will get a chance to taste of the sweet joy He has to give, and offers to everyone!
1.15.2011
Fresh Start
This is something completely new to me. I've never really thought I could do a blog but here it goes!
Life has been crazy for me. Some people may think that my life is pretty simple and a smooth road, but we all face our own trials and bumps in the road. Lately I've been facing one of the most difficult things I've ever faced. The Lord has blessed me with some many AMAZING things in the past couple years... mentors, growth in my job, school opportunities, relationships, friends, adventures, and most of all God's grace! Where would I be with out God's AMAZING grace?! He is my strength when I'm weak, the one I seek when I'm completely lost and confused. I look back at the huge messes I've put myself in and He still rescues me from my sorrow and worry. I'm learning each day that my life is not my own, it's in His complete control... I can't control other peoples lives either. And worrying about them doesn't get me anywhere. I need to let God do his work and stop trying to do it for myself. IT'S NOT MY JOB!
Now begins the road of taking care of me and seeking out what the Lord has planned for me. I am His child, He has great things for me and has created me as me!
The Lord is my Strength! Psalm 28:7
Life has been crazy for me. Some people may think that my life is pretty simple and a smooth road, but we all face our own trials and bumps in the road. Lately I've been facing one of the most difficult things I've ever faced. The Lord has blessed me with some many AMAZING things in the past couple years... mentors, growth in my job, school opportunities, relationships, friends, adventures, and most of all God's grace! Where would I be with out God's AMAZING grace?! He is my strength when I'm weak, the one I seek when I'm completely lost and confused. I look back at the huge messes I've put myself in and He still rescues me from my sorrow and worry. I'm learning each day that my life is not my own, it's in His complete control... I can't control other peoples lives either. And worrying about them doesn't get me anywhere. I need to let God do his work and stop trying to do it for myself. IT'S NOT MY JOB!
Now begins the road of taking care of me and seeking out what the Lord has planned for me. I am His child, He has great things for me and has created me as me!
The Lord is my Strength! Psalm 28:7
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